When I was younger my neighbor was a Tibettan Buddhist Nun and I used to come over to her house every Sunday and meditate. She always speaks about how Lady Tara (the mother goddess in Tibetan understanding) hears the cries of the world and sends it great compassion from her boundless heart constantly. So one Wesak (Buddha’s birthday) I was meditating and asked “Lady Tara, let me hear the cries of the world”. In a moment I felt my heart expanding to encompass the whole world and I felt myself slowly fading away. At one point I felt like what was my body was completely faded away except for a single hair. This brought me great fear and by reflex action I pulled myself out of the meditation in fear. As soon as this happened, tears flowed from my eyes as I felt that I had failed although I had no real understanding of what had happened. Only years later did I discover that this is a state that arises out of deep meditative awareness. This state is called Samadhi.
The Sanskrit word Samadhi is made up of 2 words: “Sama” which means “same as” and the word “adi” which means “first” or “highest”. So the definition is that it is a state that you arrive at where you experience being “the same as the first or highest”. What is First? What is Highest? If you keep going in your intellectual attempts at trying to find what was first eventually you will get to the first as being all of creation and the creator or source of everything. According to yoga philosophy we are all mini expressions of source – or rather the dance of light that you are is a small expression of the entire universe. That means we are actually one with everything but we forgot or are not aware of it. Samadhi is when you remember.
If you look at when we are possibly at our first and highest expression of the light that we are, this is definitely before life happened, when you first came to planet earth in your human vessel. As babies, we have a lack of bone on top of our skull at the fontanel area. As babies we were all in Samadhi and plugged into the Universe through the crown of our heads. As children we stared into space and zoned out constantly and were also constantly told off about it by our parents who told us to “stop daydreaming” or we were labeled as “dull minded”. Then in our later years we pay thousands of dollars to go back to this state through spiritual retreats, plant medicine experiences and yoga workshops.
If only we were told earlier on that these natural states of connection between your inner and outer universe was to be cultured and appreciated. If only we had meditation and spiritual practices in our developmental years. Being in Kali Yuga this is to be expected. But also it is an opportunity for us to value who we are and embrace any remembrance of our original state that we arrive at after our long sojourn through all the drama channels that people call “real life”.
When I started my journey with Himalayan Kriya Yoga and met my Guruji Dr. Pradeep Ullal these Samadhi states got deeper, more intense and lasted for longer and longer periods of time. Once I meditated for what I thought was 5 minutes but then 4 hours had passed. The experiences of becoming One with The Universe deepened and became more profound. It is a process of unfolding and not a one- time event. During these states many fantastic and hard to believe experiences happened: some healed my body, sometimes I received teachings and downloaded information from beyond, or experienced transformational shifts in my life. Sometimes when you experience these things it is easy to get addicted or obsessed with the teacher, practice, plant medicine or place that led to this experience. Fortunately I had amazing guidance. Guruji told me early on: Samadhi is the seventh level dream and no matter how fantastic the experiences are they are still part of Maya (illusion of material existence). So rather than get intoxicated in this magical world, one must renew their sadhana with redoubled effort to stay aligned and penetrate into the very core of one’s being where in the silence and stillness the original heartbeat of creation becomes your awareness of self.
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